Been Awhile

I know that I have not been active for months. We had this quarantine life because of the whole COVID-19. Trying to plan a wedding and not knowing what will happen in the following months into next year put a lot on my mind.

This quarantine has had my company working from home for months now. They had our churches closed and Mass was done online. This was tough for me. I felt like I was with Jesus but at the same time I felt like I did not have enough Jesus. I felt like I was not staying strong.

As soon as the churches opened, I have gone back to Mass in the church. I will tell you that online Mass is great for a week when something comes up that you cannot make it to a church, however I prefer to be in person. The hard wood pews, the looks from the priest, and the people around you are interacting with the lord is much better than being at home in front of a screen.

My fiancée and I would usually watch Mass together during quarantine. We tried to keep up doing as much as the same things as we could. I will admit I have missed being able to have an official date night. It put me in a weird funk. I was more stressed and very uptight.

My fiancée and I are working hard to start our lives together by first planning our wedding, signing up for our premarital classes, and having our premarital meetings. However, one thing we like to focus on for our lives together is bringing Jesus, God, and Mary into our marriage. I will admit that we are not perfect at this, but who is perfect on earth. The only thing we can do is keep striving to better ourselves and open our hearts to the lord.

As I leave you today, I would like to say that we must love our neighbor. The best way to help someone is prayer. Pray for their health, pray for their change, pray for their success. Wouldn’t you love someone praying for you?

God bless you.

How bullying changed me

Since I could remember through the time I graduated high school I was bullied. It affected me so much that I didn’t want to go to school; I didn’t want to think about school; I didn’t want to live.

In high school people started rumors about me. They were sexual rumors that no one would ever wish upon themselves. I was made fun of for this even though it didn’t happen.

It made me become a very closed person. I never talked to anyone unless I had to. I wouldn’t really speak out loud. I used a lot of instant messengers back then.

I had everyone against me I thought because by this time I forgot about Jesus and how he could help. I just tried my hardest to survive and keep myself hidden.

To this day I wish I would have had a different life, however I am thankful where I am now. So would I change it or was this God’s plan the whole time?

Date Night

Friday night my fiancée and I try to always do something as a date such as going dancing, dinner, or going to a movie.

Tonight she planned the date and surprised me with it. We went to church for the stations of the cross. We went to dinner afterwards and had some fish sandwiches. Then we went to a rodeo. So many wonderful things in one evening!

I was excited to find out what the surprise date was. I think I was more excited once I found out what it was. I have never been to the stations of the cross or even heard of it.

I am so happy with my life. I sometimes let stress and worry over power the great things in life. I am slowly learning to pray to Jesus and Mary to help me with the stress.

Never let fear stop you from playing the game. Let Jesus help you when you’re stressed. If you sin, ask for forgiveness. As my future wife explained to me. You’re not the first one to sin but you must ask for forgiveness.

4 And so John the Baptist appeared in the wilderness, preaching a baptism of repentance for the forgiveness of sins.

Mark 1:4

Living a young life without Jesus

When I was young in elementary school I had a hard time making friends. I was bullied very badly which would affect me for a long time.

Kids can be cruel especially when they aren’t taught how to live a godly life. Kids can be affected by this if they weren’t taught how to live a godly life.

I myself went to church most Sundays. I understood the basics of the religion but never really focused on it. I was baptized half way through elementary school. I still didn’t know how to not let the bullying bother me by praying.

I wasn’t the strongest at reading so I had to go to a special reading class. I also had issues with my speech, so I went to a speech class. Because of this I would miss other classes and be made fun of for it. The kids would make fun of the way I dressed, talked, read out loud, my weight, and many other things.

I had very limited friends, however they would not stick up for me because they wouldn’t want to be bullied themselves.

The bullying continued all of the way through elementary school.

7 For the Spirit God gave us does not make us timid, but gives us power, love and self-discipline.

2 Timothy 1:7

Happy with my addiction

I sit here today better than I have ever been, at least better than I can ever remember. The thing that has changed was the change of my addictions. I am now addicted to Jesus. I know what you’re thinking… I don’t want to be addicted to Jesus, or I don’t want someone to preach to me. I was in the same exact spot before, and now I stand up proud of myself.

I now go to church every weekend. Sometimes I even go twice a week. I read books about Jesus. I listen to podcasts about Jesus.

10 And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast.

1 Peter 5:10

The Journey Begins

Welcome to my blog. I will be going through my life and what has happened to lead me to where I am.

3 And God said, Let there be light: and there was light.

4 God saw that the light, that it was good: and God divided the light from the darkness.

5 God called the light day, and the darkness he called night. And the evening and the morning were the first day.

Genesis 1:3-5